Monday, June 15, 2009

Thoughts on a Rainy Sunday...

I built another temple to a stranger
I gave away my heart to the rushing wind
I set my course to run right into danger
Sought the company of fools instead of friends

You know I've been unfaithful
Lovers in lines
While you're turning over tables with the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
Thought that love would never find
Hanging ropes will never keep you
And your love of a jealous kind
Love of a jealous kind

Trying to jump away from rock that keeps on spreading
For solace in the shift of the sinking sand
I'd rather feel the pain all too familiar
Than to be broken by a lover I don't understand
'Cause I don't understand

One hundred other lovers, more, one hundred other altars
If I should slow my pace and finally subject me to grace
And love that shames the wise, betrays the heart's deceit and lies
And breaks the back of foolish pride

"Jealous Kind" - Jars of Clay

Still very much alive. Still very much being broken. Still very much learning to trust. Still very much learning to love...and to be loved in return.

There are 2 weeks left of school. I can hardly believe that I have taught a FULL school year term. Never in my dreams would I have seen myself doing this, not the teaching part. Which is probably why, as a loved one told me, exactly why I am here.

"You, O Lord, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light. With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall." - Psalm 18:28-29

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

So many good things will happen in two weeks (Lord willing)! You'll be done teaching; I'll be married and on my honeymoon; Evan will be with you in China.

"The lovingkindness of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear Him."