In one week I have officially taught a full school year term.
I cannot believe it.
Never would I have seen myself here, in a busy city, by myself, teaching, something I'm not confident in, and teaching English, a language I question my own proficiency in sometimes. ha. It's been a long 9-10 months. It's had it's share of mountain tops: new places, new faces, new experiences. But it's had more valleys. It's been a season of being alone, on my own; a true testing my faith and beliefs, my commitments, my character, my passions, and my loves. It has been growing pains like never before.
I'm tired. I'm ready to be done. But I'm ready to be done so I can start afresh. Does that make sense? I've seen my mistakes and my shortcomings and now want to tacking another year with, hopefully, more confidence, assurance, love, and joy for my job and these kids. I want to be a better teacher, a better example of His grace and love, and more confident in who He says I am.
I'm holding on the God who's holding on to me. It's the only way I can live each day - here, there, China, America, wherever.
"3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade. This inheritance is kept in heaven for you, 5 who through faith are shielded by God's power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. 6 In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7 These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. 89 for you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy,9for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls." - 1 Peter 1:3-9